A quote from John Russell, WWII vet and American Actor. Actors know that sort of thing, paying attention to ‘how they feel’ much of the time. And indeed, how often I create my own anxiety to amuse myself. We crave randomness, or the unknown, in varying amounts. I don’t really need a lot, but just enough…..you know.
Fortunately, right at the moment, a huge argument about oysters is happening in the next room. See, today is my wife’s birthday, and a huge Cajun food event is planned involving about 30 relatives. Due to the usual emotional body checks that happen in family event planning, someone (who was supposed to get the fresh oysters) was informed that ‘we had enough food’. That’s not the damned point, sorry. Bring the frikkin’ oysters anyway, even if you have to drive to Savannah in the next 2 hours to get totally fresh ones.
Ok, I’m leaving out Emotional Maturity (EM), here, on the part of those involved in the shouting. I know that. This isn’t about that. In fact, lower EM is usually a requirement for interesting times. Really, even worse, a lot of women really seem attracted to men with low EM. Sorry, back to the topic.
I was a total science geek well into my early 20s, a Mister Science working for NASA, but the insanity in my life was the San Francisco Bay Area in the 60s. Thank God for that, because the people I knew forced me to crawl out of my safety bubble and experience a lot more of the world. The next illogical step was to become an artist and, after a reasonable amount of time to make the transition, I was one. I didn’t really like it all that much but the old corpus callosum (that part of the brain that connects East and West philosophies) really appreciated having something to do.
After a number of years of integrating logic and feelings and appreciating the randomness of the world, I am grateful for its perfection. Long live arguments over oysters, whether or not the gasoline tax is good for roads, and whether we should let Uncle Zymie into the house (he’s standing on the porch right now). This is just the perfect amount of insecurity and randomness for me. I bask in my happiness!